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[ The kiss helps. It honestly does. She leans into, one arm snaking out to wrap around his shoulders and hold him close. They should order something, shouldn't they? But right now there's just him and he's here and everything is going to be better, won't it? It has to be. She's been reprieved from another round of loss. ]

I know. I know. I'm just - I was worried.

[ She murmurs, throat working in a swallow. She kisses him again after another short pause and this one lasts longer. There's something longing in the way she does it, like she's trying to ground herself in the present. She breaks that one, too. ]

But - you'll bond with me again, won't you? I don't want to be back to losing myself every month.

[ Yet another question he isn't that keen on answering, but at least this isn't a hard one. Whatever their relationship can be called, Howl enjoys her company and benefits from their bond, so bonding again is a no-brainer. That last kiss was especially appetizing. They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder.

He pulls her into a third kiss, his teeth grazing her upper lip suggestively as he wets the kiss with his tongue. And then, he pulls away, a subtle grin on his face. ]

It depends. What's in it for me? [ Leaning back, he tilts his head towards the bar. ] ...your tab tonight, for starters?

[ Iramaat can thankfully recognize teasing. She's done it often enough. She sighs and there's a flicker of a mock pout although perhaps she's too near real tears to want to try and fake them. ]

Fine. You're lucky I like you, Howl.

[ She wants to kiss him again. Wants to feel him under her hands, to trace the planes of his body, to lose herself with him so she doesn't have to worry about the future or any problems she might be facing or anything but the heat of another body and the momentary rush that comes with it. ]

And luckier still that I have money.

[ Chuckling, he raises his hand into the air and beckons a waitress. After placing an order for two rounds of drinks - so they won't have to wait for the next round after finishing the first, you see - he settles back into the chair with a sigh. By now, his other arm is loosely draped around Iramaat's shoulders. The window beside their table is cracked open, allowing in the cool night air.

He's starting to feel a little more relaxed. Thank the stars. ]

I'm moving house tomorrow. [ ought to mention that, for small talk if nothing else. ] I arranged for it earlier today, once I'd realized how long I was gone.

[ Drinks. Yes. Good. She needs one - preferably a stiff one. She stays half-draped against him, content to bask in his presence for a bit and to reassure herself that she's not going to be alone all over again. Like him, she is feeling much more relaxed. ]

Oh? The old quarters reminding you too much of something? Or just wanting a change?

A change.

[ Although he's looking out the window, he's very much enjoying the weight and warmth of his companion against his side. ]

It's time I establish myself here. I did it in my own world, and I'll do it again.

[ He sounds determined - maybe too determined for there not to be more going on behind those words. ]

This is a bit new. What brings this on...?

[ She doesn't want to bother him, really. Not when they're trying to have a lovely time and their drinks are starting to arrive. ]

Anything in particular?

[ She still asks, even as she leans her head on his shoulder. ]

[ Howl stays silent in the wake of her question. Even with their drinks arriving and a warm body against him, his troubles keep coming up, weighing on him heavier every time. Oh, why can't he just do something fun for tonight? This would be so much easier if Calcifer were here. He could mutter a few words to the demon, acknowledging the problem, and feel ready to move on.

After a sigh, he sips from his drink. Well, maybe he can try with Iramaat. ]

...I don't like how it happened. How I perished, and left, and ended up back here. [ he frowns, almost pouting. ] I hurt you, but I made a fool of myself, too.

[ Iramaat takes her drink and downs a swig of it, not particularly caring that she might be overdoing it a bit. ]

...I understand.

[ She interlaces his fingers with his and squeezes. ]

I don't like any of it, either. But you can't really be blamed for this damnable place not sending you back properly, can you?

[ She hesitates. How much of herself does she bare? How much does she keep back? ]

If it's any consolation... I've sort of been in the same situation before.

[ Howl is asking himself the same questions. How much should he tell Iramaat about how he died? He hasn't told her explicitly yet, but she must know that's what happened, considering how their bond was severed. And she witnessed him casting that transformation spell on himself - or, rather, attempting to cast it and doing a terrible job. It's so humiliating that he feels relieved when she brings up her own situation. ]

How do you mean? [ he tears his eyes away from the window and glances at her. ] Were you sent back for a short time once before?

Mmm.

[ She shakes her head with a slight grimace. ]

Not like that. I... well. About a year ago some unsavory elements in Aefenglom society decided they were going to teach some mirrorbound and monsters a lesson and kidnapped a bunch of us. And mostly they just... tortured us for their own amusement.

[ Her expression twists. ]

They broke my legs. Among other things.

[ Howl's expression stiffens and darkens, and for a moment he says nothing, his brain simply processing this information. It goes without saying that it's shocking and horrible. ]

That's no consolation at all. What happened? Were you rescued?

[ Iramaat sighs. She doesn't like talking about this for some reason. It brings up unpleasant memories, of being chained to a wall while they tightened the screws on the cuff on her ankle until something gave. She remembers what they did to Trevor. She remembers a lot of things she'd rather not and she seems to shrink a little into herself.

When had she become so vulnerable? This had never happened to her before. ]

...yes. Eventually. And all of them are dead now. So it's all in the past.

[ She tries to laugh, but it sounds shrill. ]

[ There's nothing about her torturers' demise that comforts him either. In an abstract sense, Howl understands that they likely deserved it, but it paints the incident as a wholly miserable one.

Howl reaches across her body with his other arm and pulls her against his chest. He doesn't know if this will help, but he wants her to stop that awful shrill fake laugh. ]

...You're right, it's in the past for us both. Tonight is for us.

[ She's keeping her antlers neatly manicured these days - a little shorter so they don't bash people in the face - and so she turns and buries her head against his chest as he pulls her in. It's stupid and ridiculous, but she takes comfort from the physicality of it. But she's never needed comfort before she came here.

Not really. ]

Yes. Yes it is.

[ Her voice is muffled by his shirt. ]

Just - let me sit like this for a moment. You're warm.

[ Definitely not because she's trying to squeeze back tears. Definitely not because those memories are awful. Nope. She's fine and she'll always be fine. ]

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